Tuesday, January 17, 2017

He Does Not Change

 To tell you the truth I have been down for while......part depressed, part illness and the rest, just life. We made a big move at the end of 2015 for a job for my husband. It sounded great, it looked great on paper, but sometimes things don't always work exactly like you think they will.

Struggles.....we had a few. About the time it felt like we were getting settled in, I was diagnosed with COPD and CHF. it was blow to say the least. I walked around a little bit dazed for a while. I just couldn't figure out how this happened. You know how it goes, you start reasoning. I tried to do everything right,so that I would not get any type of illness like these. I was angry, sad, scared....you name it. Finances got a little rocky. I had a daughter getting married. I have a son graduating high school. It was a lot going on.

Depression crept in. Thats how depression will do you though, it's a creeper. It certainly doesn't announce itself at the door, right? Throw a bout of pneumonia and strep throat on top of that and it is the perfect storm. There are times I want to quit. Sit down and stay down. The illness alone is difficult some days. If it was just the illness, I think I could manage better.

Today my oldest daughter shared a post on facebook from her church about the dreams that God has given you and which of those are you going to go after in 2017. That post gave me a nudge....and I remembered.....

I remembered that I am the Daughter of the Most High God, I am an Overcomer, I am Resilient, I can make it. He calls me Worthy, He calls me Friend, He is the Lifter of my Head, He is my Source, He is the Grace Giver.

I remembered the dream He gave to me. How that He gave me the ability to tell a story, to write, to speak. I always dreamed of touching people's lives, inspiring them, watching people be set free from any and all bondages.

I remembered that He is a big God and just because my address changed, just because my health changed, just because the job situation changed.....He did not change. The situations I face may be beyond my control, but they are not out of His reach.

I'm going to go after the dreams He gave me...I'm hoping you will do the same.

Still walking this journey with you, my friends,


Saturday, July 9, 2016

How Does Jesus Look on You?

Confused. Heartbroken. Anxious.

I think that about sums up how I feel in the midst of this war-zone like atmosphere we are seeing this week.

Then on facebook I see people saying that this is just a sign of the end time and God told us what to expect. If you know me at all you know I HAVE to say something to that. WOW. so we are just supposed to accept these actions and turn the other way because its a sign that the end is near? Is that what we think Jesus meant? Is the church that calloused over? It sure seems that way.

Yes, I can certainly read my Bible and see writing on the wall. However, God is still a God of love and forgiveness too. The end has not happened yet. We are still here having to navigate these new waters. I can't just turn my head and shrug it away. Is that what God wants? I don't think so. As long as we have breath, let's show the love of God to people. This crisis, demands that the church stand up and show God's grace.

These acts are related to a spirit of hatred, a spirit of confusion, and a spirit of racism. We have to combat these spiritual attacks. Our enemy is not flesh and blood. Our enemy wants to destroy humanity from the inside out.

 Can we climb down off our self-appointed, Bible thumping righteousness for a second and just take in the actual people and their hurts? You say it is the end time, so what are you doing about it? Are you reaching out to people? Are you telling that God forgives? Have you told them there is still HOPE? Can you quit preaching long enough to ACT?

The families whose lives have been shattered through all of this probably will not accept your biblical theology, but they just might accept an act of love, of grace, or mercy, and or forgiveness. They need someone to listen. They need our prayer. They need to see Jesus walk among them and the way He does that is through you.

Represent Him well today.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

His Mercies are New Every Morning

I was praying the other morning and I paused just to listen to hear what God was saying to me. It seems I do my best praying in the shower, I have no clue why that is. Probably that is the one moment of the day when I can be assured that I won't be interrupted....well at least 90% of the time I am uninterrupted.

So I am in the shower, praying. I have to admit that sometimes when I pray I feel like such a failure. It feels like all I am doing is just talking to God about my failures, my short comings, asking for help in different areas of my life. Tell me that I am not the only one that does this? But when I paused, I heard something in my heart. These were the words, "Regina, your failures do NOT define you." Then this, "My mercies are new EVERY morning." what a relief washed over me, I felt a freedom begin to swell inside of me.

I mean we all make mistakes, do the wrong thing, say the wrong words, have the wrong actions. We fall. Sometimes often in one day. And even though I had heard that verse my entire life, it became real to me in that moment. It was like God was saying, yes, you may have blown it, but you sought me for forgiveness for any wrong actions, now today is a new day, get up and continue moving forward. I realized that His mercy does not run out, it does not quit, it is new, it is enough for me, if I fail 1000 times, then 1000 mornings His mercy is new for me. I am not defined by the past mistakes of yesterday. I am more than that. I am not held in the grip of sin, I am FREE!!! I don't have to walk in lingering guilt or shame, I don't have to give place to that condemning voice that tells me I am unworthy, useless, scarred, broken. No! His mercy restores me daily. I am not in bondage to any of that. Life is good, even if I fall, even I fail, God has mercy. He is for me, He wants me to make it, He is cheering for me to get up and experience Him. Why? Because He loves me and wants to have communication with me. And the great thing.....He has  enough mercy and grace to cover not just me, but ALL of us. Come on y'all, let's move forward with another step!

 Where today do you need to experience that fresh mercy in your life? Open you heart to Him, confess your faults to Him, then experience MERCY and once you do, go out and share that mercy, that grace with everyone you meet! We are all the same. We are all facing obstacles. We all have moments we want to quit. All of us are fighting battles that others can't see, so extend that mercy to others today.

Walking with you on the journey,