I was praying the other morning and I paused just to listen to hear what God was saying to me. It seems I do my best praying in the shower, I have no clue why that is. Probably that is the one moment of the day when I can be assured that I won't be interrupted....well at least 90% of the time I am uninterrupted.
So I am in the shower, praying. I have to admit that sometimes when I pray I feel like such a failure. It feels like all I am doing is just talking to God about my failures, my short comings, asking for help in different areas of my life. Tell me that I am not the only one that does this? But when I paused, I heard something in my heart. These were the words, "Regina, your failures do NOT define you." Then this, "My mercies are new EVERY morning." what a relief washed over me, I felt a freedom begin to swell inside of me.
I mean we all make mistakes, do the wrong thing, say the wrong words, have the wrong actions. We fall. Sometimes often in one day. And even though I had heard that verse my entire life, it became real to me in that moment. It was like God was saying, yes, you may have blown it, but you sought me for forgiveness for any wrong actions, now today is a new day, get up and continue moving forward. I realized that His mercy does not run out, it does not quit, it is new, it is enough for me, if I fail 1000 times, then 1000 mornings His mercy is new for me. I am not defined by the past mistakes of yesterday. I am more than that. I am not held in the grip of sin, I am FREE!!! I don't have to walk in lingering guilt or shame, I don't have to give place to that condemning voice that tells me I am unworthy, useless, scarred, broken. No! His mercy restores me daily. I am not in bondage to any of that. Life is good, even if I fall, even I fail, God has mercy. He is for me, He wants me to make it, He is cheering for me to get up and experience Him. Why? Because He loves me and wants to have communication with me. And the great thing.....He has enough mercy and grace to cover not just me, but ALL of us. Come on y'all, let's move forward with another step!
Walking with you on the journey,